Would a Father give Me a New Feather

                                                           sometimes i wander

how it would be to live with a father?

would i be flying further 

towards my goal with new feather?

would i still be a melting butter

and sob silent tears in corner?

or would i get a lighter

that waits until i get better

would i still be bad mouthed and let to be alone

just because i dont smile?

or would i get a fighter

that fights beside me rather

sometimes i wonder 

what it would be to live with a father?

will my efforts be appreciated 

and praised full heartedly?

my only ability is to wish

almost like an angler fish

i imagine for my smile

atleast i can see sunlight in thoses pile